Wednesday, August 27, 2008


Yeah, reliving the good old days, all right. I was going through some old photos when I chanced upon this montage made for us by Joel. Indeed, memories of yesteryear, ain't it? These photos were taken during our Rockhampton trip back in November 2006. The esteemed members of Kukrusann are, (from L) Charles Wong, myself, Jon Tay, Toshi Moriyuki, John Khoo and Mark Su!

Interestingly, our Kukrusann blog is actually still up online, although it's not really updated anymore.

And She Said

I finally logged into the Windows Live account this morning, and read your saved email. The video made me tear, only because the lyrics, which would have once made perfect sense, now seem to be only mocking me over & over again. Thanks for the account, I'm sure it'll come into very good use one day.

Never something I could hide
When I see we made it through another day

Monday, August 25, 2008

Rise & Shine

I woke up at 5 this morning, owing to the fact that I went to bed at 7pm last night. Didn't even catch the closing ceremony for the 2008 Summer Olympics. However, I must say though, it must have been years since I woke up at 5am actually feeling fresh! Quite a good feeling, actually. To be able to breathe in the fresh morning air and actually not thinking what a crazy all-nighter I just had. But I don't think I can upkeep a "sleep-at-7pm" routine anytime soon, so I'm sure this is going to be just a one-off thing.

Life, what a conundrum, eh. Mood swings took over most of my weekend over the last few days, and the feeling is nothing short of terrible. I've never experienced so much joy, fear, regret, bitterness, disappointment, dread, apprehension, confusion, remorse, nonchalance, relief and insouciance in just a short span of a few days. It's terrible, but I know it's going to continue for a few more weeks.

Just to soothe my nerves, I actually fished out my old copy of Final Fantasy XII, popped it into my PS3 and played the Bahamut/final boss battle segment again just for old time's sake. It was fun and really nostalgic, thinking about all the 200+ hours I've invested in this game back in 2006 when the game was first released. Fast forward two years later, and now we're all eagerly anticipating Final Fantasy XIII's release.

I actually had quite some difficulty defeating the final incarnation of Vayne, even though I had lvl. 83 characters across. Shows how much I've lost touch with that game! Even though, it's always really nice to just crack out all those past RPGs that you've played over the years and give it a short run, just to relive that old-school feeling of sitting in front of your console and TV for hours at an end, busy levelling up and clearing dungeons.

Well, I'm trying to remain positive for the good start of the day so far. I'll be attempting to clean out my wardrobe later. That ought to be daunting enough!

The ERP Reich

I stumbled onto something that I must say is pretty damn funny and clever whilst surfing YouTube this morning. I guess most people have seen it already (knowing how slow I am when it comes to interesting YouTube clips), but I thought I'd just post it up for comedic relief in these dark times.

Sorry if it appears to be a little insensitive. Well, it's Hitler after all. Anything about him can be construed as insensitivity.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Decided Fates

Here's something I just came across from a devotion. It says, "Sometimes, when God doesn't give us what we want, we say that God didn't answer our prayer. I would say that He did, because 'no' is as much an answer to prayer as 'yes' is".

That's really food for thought, isn't it. But it does make complete sense. To you, I can only say I'm sorry I've betrayed you and brought shame to what we've both shared and held precious. I will take your parting advice, only in hopes that I can prove to you, and more importantly myself, that I can be better than this.

A Note

Write a note, some say. It helps with the grieving process. So okay, I'll write a note. But right now I have no idea what to put down. The dull ache of misery, hopelessness and regret is far too stinging to bear.

And yet, things can only go worse. A badly-painted scenario so warped, so wrong, yet so real. People always say, what's done is done, you can only look ahead. And so very true, yet so very hard to master. Am I sorry? Yes, but perhaps not as much as I should be. Do I regret? Definitely so.

What you have, you don't want. What you don't have, you wish you had. Isn't that the bitter nature of us humans? How a single act of selfishness and mistrust and overturn everything in a blink of an eye. There's this quote which I stumbled upon, which I find most apt.

Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm definitely not sure about the universe.

There will be more demons for me to face, demons that won't surface until the time is right. Till then, this wait will continue to haunt me, forever and beyond. Time to pick up the pieces. Time to face the facts. Time to move on.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Staying On

It's Day 5 in Katy here, and by all rights I should be on a plane en route to Amsterdam right now. But, as they say, things never happen your way! Through a series of very endearing circumstances, my stay here has been extended till the 19th. That means I only leave on Tuesday, head off to Amsterdam for a 14-hour layover then arrive in Singapore on Thursday the 21st.

I went down to accompany Annie to bring Victoria and Albert to their new high school, Seven Lakes High School for their open day. There, I brought Albert to see his new teachers, get his photo ID done, collect his school supplies list, buy his books and stuff. Their school is pretty new in the Katy district, and seems really well equipped. They even have a black box and performing arts centre within the school. Now that's what I like to see!

And even in the school, I managed to get some shopping done -- I bought a SLHS sweatshirt and and a tee. Not bad, huh! I even managed to take a photo in front of the school with my SLHS sweatshirt on, posing as a senior. I think I looked quite the part! Will post photos on Facebook once I get back to Singapore.

Other than that, the past few days have been pretty relaxing. Went for a spot of shopping at Memorial City Mall after watching Clone Wars, where I contended myself with purchases at GameStop and Victoria's Secret. (Yes, it's can be fun shopping in a women's boutique too.) Oh, and eating alot. Well, just as well, we're heading out for dinner soon. ¡Hasta luego ás-ta lwé-go!

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Outworldly Fun

It's Day 3 here in Katy and I'm still a little jetlagged. Thank god for Red Bull which happens to be cheaper than the price they're selling it for in Singapore! Groceries here seem to be really cheap compared to Singapore, and definitely way cheaper than the UK.

We'll be heading down to the NASA Space Center Houston afterwards for some touristy fun -- I heard that place is quite out of this world! That aside, I've been pretty much having a great time chilling out here. Annie's new house is splendid, and she's been spoiling me silly with her great hospitality and food.

Sadly enough, I'll be leaving in 2 days' time. Better not get used to it!